I find myself asking 'what is ..blank..?' more often these days..
Like when i'm working out i say to myself, 'what is pain?' then i'm able to
push out more reps or go longer in whatever activity i'm doing.
I'm pushing the limits of my mind,
what are My limitations..?
what makes Me laugh?
what etc, etc, etc...?
I find extreme beauty and love in Nature, in fact i woke up
at 5:02 this morning and took a meditation walk
in the park across the street,
the air was sweet & full of earthy tree leaf notes and a deep crispness;
it burned my nose to breath and my nose started to drip,
it had to be in the mid to high 20's here in East Wenatchee.
The grass was frosted and softly crushed under my moccasins,
to my eyes, in the light of the street lamps, the grass
sparkled like tiny diamonds were infused
in an immensely neat greenish white blanket;
i smiled and continued to walk.
At work i caused the biggest cluster fuck to date in my history there
& everyone got all worked up about, well.. really nothing all that
important.
I just asked myself 'is this really going to matter in a year from now..?'
the answer was no, so i just waited for time to pass, then everything
was fine again an hour later.
lol fuck that ish - Jonny Bamboo 1 - Stress ZERO! Mwahahaha Bitches!!! lol just playin.
The sunset this evening was like a Neon Crimson pink, if that is even possible,
all cast above the bluish, white snowcapped mountains and under
a grey clouded valley sky. It was a thin slice of heavenly flava to my soul,
i lost myself for a little while. Some kid was trying to talk to me and i nodded
like everything he was saying mattered, but mud bogging in the mountains
and shooting things just ain't really my thang... meh, but who am i to judge..?
So i just spent thee entire weekend with a Zen monk,
a lot of meditation and thats really all i have to say about that;
oh i jumped in a giant pile of leaves;
i laughed like i was five again - and maybe i am.
i drift,
i smile,
i drift some more;
does life need to be more complicated than this..?
Show me the money honey!
this and that life style no longer appeals to me,
no longer in my dreams do i strive to make
green own me like a slave,
though i will carry the scares from the shackles on my wrists
gladly to help those who fit as lost puzzle pieces to my heart.
Haha the Zen monk said not to think too much,
so i'm done... lol!